Here I Go..

Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands up in the air
I know I can count on you.
Sometimes I feel like saying
Lord I just don't care
But you've got the love I need 
To see me through.

Sometimes it seems that the going is just too rough
And things go wrong no matter what I do.
Now and then it seems that life is just too much
But you've got the love I need to see me through.

When food is gone you are my daily meal ,
When friends are gone, I know my saviour's love is real
Your love is real

You got the love

Time after time I think 
Oh Lord what's the use?
Time after time I think it's just no good
Sooner or later in life, the things you love, you lose,
But you got the love I need to see me through.

You got the love

Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands up in the air
I know I can count on you.
Sometimes I feel like saying 
Lord I just don't care,
But you've got the love I need to see me through.

You got the love
You got the love
You got the love
You got the love
You got the love
You got the love

You Got The Love - Florence & The Machine 

I really love this song, but somehow, when I played it this morning, it made me feel different. Dad calls it 'growing up', but I think of it as a paradigm shift in the right direction.

I spoke to Emile yesterday. I'd like very much to tell you who Emile is to me, but it won't mean anything to you. I'd rather you learn about him by reliving his thoughts, as I do. Anyway. We had a conversation that went pretty much like this:

Emile: What are we? :(

Me: Seekers.

Emile: But what if there isn't any answers?

Me: There is nothing but answers. We're looking for questions that fit. Finding ourselves in our past so we can create a future. You can't know what something is if you don't know what it isn't.

This may seem totally unrelated to the song, but it's probably because your mind isn't as warped as mine. I've always been a cynic, it's in my nature. I'd always thought that I was better off for it. But there's always a point at which you can find no solution, and you have to trust someone else to tell you what is right - and here's the catch - you have to really trust them enough to believe that they're leading you down the right path.

Uh, sidenote: This has nothing to do with religion, okay, that nonsense is for another day.

So yeah, I'm at that point where I am trusting someone with my heart. I am going to believe him when he tells me that love is real. I think I'm ready for it.

Yours (in faith - omg the 'f' word, yes)
Jesamania